the ballad of love and hate

wanna know the truth 
well i’ll let you know when i figure it out too. 

2 little mermaids just brightened up my day.

piano.art.music.school.teaching.selling.

when you feel like everything is the way it’s supposed to be.

tiny insignificant school girl crush on you.

thank god, because i’m hungry.

today’s been busy,
soccer, work,
exercise and money.

now i’m home,
in my bed,
thinking about the work i have to do,
and how i have the strange urge to dress up,
to wear nice clothes,
to go shopping.

however i know tomorrow will be a yoga pant,
and baggy shirt type of day.
in the back of my mind all i want is to have a place to dress up,
to be somewhere else then this town.

as for now,
home,
felicity,
homework,
the clothes on my back.

cheers to the rest of the week! 

• drive
• more sleep
• more food
• focus.

and yet it feels like doomsday.

get this, i can be totally fine.
i can concentrate,
then i start wishing about what i want,
and then i remember.
shit.
for a second i had it.

i must keep studying.